Welcome to pain,
Been awhile since I posted and this is my last post for this blog. Have been doing alot of thinking lately and things fumed up inside me. For the past two days I've caused alot of pain to someone whom I really loved till she cried. I guess my anger brought the worst out of me that I didn't expect to go to that extend, looking at the messages I sent and things I said, I regret everything. You don't have to think me because I rather you hate me and not be bothered with what I do anymore. From now on ( 14th July 2010, 1149hrs) I shall be offically condisered to be of no exsistance in your life so that you can be happy and stay smiling with the one you really care. I shall continue with my life pretending never to have met you, so that I will not have to tortue you anymore. I rather face this world alone like how I used to before I had you. Being alone is something that I'm not new to, so if we ever meet again please just ignore me. Thank you, for being a very good girlfriend, cousin and friend. I love you....
If you want to know my true intentions, it's simple: I want to be out of your life because I cause you nothing but pain and misery. But I went to far and made you shed tears, and I don't ever want that to happen again. So this is the end...
The gates have been closed permernantly,
Love breeds sacrifice, Sacrifice breeds hatred
14 July 2010
10 June 2010
Lonely...
Welcome to PAIN,
The past few days were like WTH and they still are continuing...
Monday and Tuesday had to go for a leadership camp and it was cool, met a few people and had to work with a few. Played alot of mind-fuck games and that really killed my mind. After camp came back to rest...
Yesterday went to see Prince Of Persia with a dear friend but I guess my friend wasn't really happy cause the facial expressions were like giving it of. So ya, at least enjoyed the movie and the companionship of my friend.
Started the day like a fuck, first thing my mum told me is that they want to my dear dog to sleep. It's like WTF, they want to kill her after being in the family for so long... Guess the girl who lissten to my problems is gonna leave me soon as well, no one to turn to for me...
Life is just screwed up, and mine a leaving tortue...
Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
The past few days were like WTH and they still are continuing...
Monday and Tuesday had to go for a leadership camp and it was cool, met a few people and had to work with a few. Played alot of mind-fuck games and that really killed my mind. After camp came back to rest...
Yesterday went to see Prince Of Persia with a dear friend but I guess my friend wasn't really happy cause the facial expressions were like giving it of. So ya, at least enjoyed the movie and the companionship of my friend.
Started the day like a fuck, first thing my mum told me is that they want to my dear dog to sleep. It's like WTF, they want to kill her after being in the family for so long... Guess the girl who lissten to my problems is gonna leave me soon as well, no one to turn to for me...
Life is just screwed up, and mine a leaving tortue...
Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
06 June 2010
Hmmm...
Welcome to PAIN,
Usually I start out with some wierd summary of the day but since nothing much happen this portion will be phased out.
So for the past two days had AFc practice, not to bad actually. Getting the hold of my handstand and learning swipes. Injured a bit but no pain, no gain right? So practices are fun...
Yesterday went to piggy's house for supper. Wanted to take my supplements but didn't cause I ate fried rice with chicken curry(OMG!!!SO TEMPTING RIGHT??), was quite a long day...
Today like what I said nothing much, but I'm gonna NINJA for 2 days as I got to go for a certain event, in a certain educational institute, in the northern site of a certain country...Try guessing^^
Haha, and to that somebody, happy?? I UPDATED ME BLOG!!! YAY!!!
Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
Usually I start out with some wierd summary of the day but since nothing much happen this portion will be phased out.
So for the past two days had AFc practice, not to bad actually. Getting the hold of my handstand and learning swipes. Injured a bit but no pain, no gain right? So practices are fun...
Yesterday went to piggy's house for supper. Wanted to take my supplements but didn't cause I ate fried rice with chicken curry(OMG!!!SO TEMPTING RIGHT??), was quite a long day...
Today like what I said nothing much, but I'm gonna NINJA for 2 days as I got to go for a certain event, in a certain educational institute, in the northern site of a certain country...Try guessing^^
Haha, and to that somebody, happy?? I UPDATED ME BLOG!!! YAY!!!
Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
04 June 2010
Finding The Past....
Welcome to PAIN,
Well the past two days were like shit and today well it's the start of a new month and I really need to do some soul searching. I need to get the Larhvin who was driven by anger, the Larhvin that never gives up and the Larhvin that shows people that he can do wonders. But when I need him the most his not here but hiding deep in the abyss of my soul...
To my dear friend, the only reason I promise to still be here is because of you. So if anyone was to break your heart, I'll break their face because I will not be able to see you in pain as all I want is to see you happy always...
Well, it's gonna be hard to find the old Larhvin but once I do, those people will take back their words and know who we are and that is a STATEMENT!!!
Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
Well the past two days were like shit and today well it's the start of a new month and I really need to do some soul searching. I need to get the Larhvin who was driven by anger, the Larhvin that never gives up and the Larhvin that shows people that he can do wonders. But when I need him the most his not here but hiding deep in the abyss of my soul...
To my dear friend, the only reason I promise to still be here is because of you. So if anyone was to break your heart, I'll break their face because I will not be able to see you in pain as all I want is to see you happy always...
Well, it's gonna be hard to find the old Larhvin but once I do, those people will take back their words and know who we are and that is a STATEMENT!!!
Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
01 June 2010
Saviour Demon
The gates are open to that person alone,
I may not be able to be your guardian angel because I know I'm destined to hell but I will be your saviour demon and protect you. I'm always here for you and you can count on me. I'll never leave your side even in life or death. If you really need a shoulder to rest your head, mines always here. If you need to vent your anger at someone, my ears are wide open. I'll be your scapegoat just to see you smile. Your teachers might scold you but what other things are they good at? Your a smart person, and it won't change no matter what anyone says. The only reason my heart is still beating is because of you. Do take care...
Pain is inevitale, Suffering is optional
I may not be able to be your guardian angel because I know I'm destined to hell but I will be your saviour demon and protect you. I'm always here for you and you can count on me. I'll never leave your side even in life or death. If you really need a shoulder to rest your head, mines always here. If you need to vent your anger at someone, my ears are wide open. I'll be your scapegoat just to see you smile. Your teachers might scold you but what other things are they good at? Your a smart person, and it won't change no matter what anyone says. The only reason my heart is still beating is because of you. Do take care...
Pain is inevitale, Suffering is optional
Protect
Welcome to PAIN,
Tomorrow's going to be a hell of a day when Drive challenges Limits, but I'm not going to give up now. After fighting so hard, this is where I'll make my stand.
To a certain someone, I don't if it was my post that got you pissed but if it did I'm sorry because it was before our discussion. I promise to live on for your sake, to protect you. I'm might not always make you smile but you do my my shoulder if you want to cry. You can scream, yell and hit me all you want as I'll be your dummy to vent out your anger. I'll be there for you always.
Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
Tomorrow's going to be a hell of a day when Drive challenges Limits, but I'm not going to give up now. After fighting so hard, this is where I'll make my stand.
To a certain someone, I don't if it was my post that got you pissed but if it did I'm sorry because it was before our discussion. I promise to live on for your sake, to protect you. I'm might not always make you smile but you do my my shoulder if you want to cry. You can scream, yell and hit me all you want as I'll be your dummy to vent out your anger. I'll be there for you always.
Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
29 May 2010
D.E.A.T.H
Welcome to PAIN,
Guess this will be my last few post, being a burden to everyone is not a life I want to lead. I've caused so much of pain to alot of people. And I want to stop all this, so I have no other solution...
I'm sorry for being a burden to you because you had to put up with me everyday, and I hope that you might be happy if I leave you.
To my dear friend, I'm sorry for not being appreciative when you came to meet me ad=nd sorry for acting like a jerk the day after. Hope you'd be happy as well.
To the rest of the people, sorry for being part of your life, I'm nothing but a waste of time and energy. To burden you'll with my friendship is a sin.
Hope that hell will be happy o have my soul....
Till the gates closes for eternity,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
Guess this will be my last few post, being a burden to everyone is not a life I want to lead. I've caused so much of pain to alot of people. And I want to stop all this, so I have no other solution...
I'm sorry for being a burden to you because you had to put up with me everyday, and I hope that you might be happy if I leave you.
To my dear friend, I'm sorry for not being appreciative when you came to meet me ad=nd sorry for acting like a jerk the day after. Hope you'd be happy as well.
To the rest of the people, sorry for being part of your life, I'm nothing but a waste of time and energy. To burden you'll with my friendship is a sin.
Hope that hell will be happy o have my soul....
Till the gates closes for eternity,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
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