My fnal post

Welcome to pain,
Been awhile since I posted and this is my last post for this blog. Have been doing alot of thinking lately and things fumed up inside me. For the past two days I've caused alot of pain to someone whom I really loved till she cried. I guess my anger brought the worst out of me that I didn't expect to go to that extend, looking at the messages I sent and things I said, I regret everything. You don't have to think me because I rather you hate me and not be bothered with what I do anymore. From now on ( 14th July 2010, 1149hrs) I shall be offically condisered to be of no exsistance in your life so that you can be happy and stay smiling with the one you really care. I shall continue with my life pretending never to have met you, so that I will not have to tortue you anymore. I rather face this world alone like how I used to before I had you. Being alone is something that I'm not new to, so if we ever meet again please just ignore me. Thank you, for being a very good girlfriend, cousin and friend. I love you....

If you want to know my true intentions, it's simple: I want to be out of your life because I cause you nothing but pain and misery. But I went to far and made you shed tears, and I don't ever want that to happen again. So this is the end...

The gates have been closed permernantly,
Love breeds sacrifice, Sacrifice breeds hatred

Lonely...

Welcome to PAIN,
The past few days were like WTH and they still are continuing...
Monday and Tuesday had to go for a leadership camp and it was cool, met a few people and had to work with a few. Played alot of mind-fuck games and that really killed my mind. After camp came back to rest...
Yesterday went to see Prince Of Persia with a dear friend but I guess my friend wasn't really happy cause the facial expressions were like giving it of. So ya, at least enjoyed the movie and the companionship of my friend.
Started the day like a fuck, first thing my mum told me is that they want to my dear dog to sleep. It's like WTF, they want to kill her after being in the family for so long... Guess the girl who lissten to my problems is gonna leave me soon as well, no one to turn to for me...
Life is just screwed up, and mine a leaving tortue...

Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Hmmm...

Welcome to PAIN,
Usually I start out with some wierd summary of the day but since nothing much happen this portion will be phased out.
So for the past two days had AFc practice, not to bad actually. Getting the hold of my handstand and learning swipes. Injured a bit but no pain, no gain right? So practices are fun...
Yesterday went to piggy's house for supper. Wanted to take my supplements but didn't cause I ate fried rice with chicken curry(OMG!!!SO TEMPTING RIGHT??), was quite a long day...
Today like what I said nothing much, but I'm gonna NINJA for 2 days as I got to go for a certain event, in a certain educational institute, in the northern site of a certain country...Try guessing^^
Haha, and to that somebody, happy?? I UPDATED ME BLOG!!! YAY!!!

Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Finding The Past....

Welcome to PAIN,

Well the past two days were like shit and today well it's the start of a new month and I really need to do some soul searching. I need to get the Larhvin who was driven by anger, the Larhvin that never gives up and the Larhvin that shows people that he can do wonders. But when I need him the most his not here but hiding deep in the abyss of my soul...
To my dear friend, the only reason I promise to still be here is because of you. So if anyone was to break your heart, I'll break their face because I will not be able to see you in pain as all I want is to see you happy always...
Well, it's gonna be hard to find the old Larhvin but once I do, those people will take back their words and know who we are and that is a STATEMENT!!!

Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Saviour Demon

The gates are open to that person alone,

I may not be able to be your guardian angel because I know I'm destined to hell but I will be your saviour demon and protect you. I'm always here for you and you can count on me. I'll never leave your side even in life or death. If you really need a shoulder to rest your head, mines always here. If you need to vent your anger at someone, my ears are wide open. I'll be your scapegoat just to see you smile. Your teachers might scold you but what other things are they good at? Your a smart person, and it won't change no matter what anyone says. The only reason my heart is still beating is because of you. Do take care...

Pain is inevitale, Suffering is optional

Protect

Welcome to PAIN,
Tomorrow's going to be a hell of a day when Drive challenges Limits, but I'm not going to give up now. After fighting so hard, this is where I'll make my stand.
To a certain someone, I don't if it was my post that got you pissed but if it did I'm sorry because it was before our discussion. I promise to live on for your sake, to protect you. I'm might not always make you smile but you do my my shoulder if you want to cry. You can scream, yell and hit me all you want as I'll be your dummy to vent out your anger. I'll be there for you always.

Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

D.E.A.T.H

Welcome to PAIN,
Guess this will be my last few post, being a burden to everyone is not a life I want to lead. I've caused so much of pain to alot of people. And I want to stop all this, so I have no other solution...
I'm sorry for being a burden to you because you had to put up with me everyday, and I hope that you might be happy if I leave you.
To my dear friend, I'm sorry for not being appreciative when you came to meet me ad=nd sorry for acting like a jerk the day after. Hope you'd be happy as well.
To the rest of the people, sorry for being part of your life, I'm nothing but a waste of time and energy. To burden you'll with my friendship is a sin.
Hope that hell will be happy o have my soul....

Till the gates closes for eternity,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Long TIme

Welcome to PAIN,

Haven't update my blog for a good 5 days beause was quite busy and wasn't really in the mood beause of a certain someone.
Well let's recap this week, Monday to Thursday was schol as usual and is as boring as ever. Had to go to work everyday but I didn't mind because my new partners are very very hardworking and I'm willing to help them.
Putting them aside this has been a long week because had an arguement with someone. She blames me for everything and never gave me a chance to explain. But when some idiot repeatedly does it she alwways closes one eye and gives in to him. And now she's saying that they are a perfect couple. But it's ironic, when 2-3 years ago when a certain someone told that the love between me and that someone was just puppy love you gave the same answer but look at us now...maybe you're just desperate...
I am not trying to treaten you but I'm telling you nicely because I don't wanna hurt you, don't trigger my temper or the past will haunt you....

Till the gates open again...
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Resoning?

The gates are closed, but this post is for someone alone...
I agree love is two sided and we both made mistakes. You didn't dump me but left me aside after making me wait and giving a simple excuse. When I wanted to break up with you using the same excuse you said everything will be alright but when you say it's not I've got to shut up, listen and move on? What do you think I am?
Of course I had to lie that I've moved on because I want to see you happy and I live a lie because of your happiness. I agree to my many mistakes but you always tell you think it's easy but you have long since gotten rid of me from your life, so it's for you to say.
I'm cheating myself? What do you I look like? You cheated me and lied to me. I ask you to meet me only once but you say no, so when I constantly ask you it's like I'm pestering you to out everyday. But whenever you say you got no time, somehow you'll make time to meet some idiot. I know you too well, and how you act to a person you love so you don't have to hide it.
And I guess it was my mistake for falling for you, not yours. I guess it was my mistake getting together with you, not yours. I guess it's my mistake for asking for a patch, not yours. I guess it's my mistake waiting for you when you told me too, not yours.
So in the end, everything that's happening to me is my fault okay and you've nothing to do with it. You're an angel that has done no sins, but only good. People change, feelings change but memories will forever be intacted.

You know who you are,
Love breeds sacrifice which in turn breeds hate....

Apologize?

Welcome to PAIN,
How have your week been?
I guessed that someone was trying to apologize for the things I go through but has nevver thought of the actions and works the person has used and said. I now am thinking that I was made a fool and was cheated because of my feelings. Yes, moving on and meeting people are easy but forgetting what I had and loved is another. You may have already done so but I'm not like you. Words pierce the heart harder than a sword, pictures burn the wound worse that salt.
So yesterday was super shitty, had a very bad morning but thanks to a few people manage to put that happy mask back on my face. Made a few people worried but sorry for doing so, as time to come I'll tell you guys. Offically lost contact with one my closes friends because of some reason which she wouldn't tell.
Today was tiring, but it's worth it. I won't give up ven thou it's only one week left to go. I'll prove everyone wrong and will definitly make my parents proud of me. Can't wait for my mum's birthday cake cuttingat midnight, Love my mum lots.

Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Day 40 - Double The Pain

Welcome to PAIN,
Shit happens to everyone but to me I think it happens on daily.
Since yesterday, lost my memory stick and found it was in my foolscap paper, manage to have a 8 line conversation with a friend who won't talk to me no more for god knows why, saw a few things which I think I shouldn't have cause it pissed me of.
Now in great pain, but that the way my life goes, nothing but pain...I'll face this world alone cause I know that there is no one who understands me and knows what I'm going through. Simple, happy-go-lucky kind of attitude is easy to keep but no one sees under the shadow the amount of pain i go through. But pain is inevitable, and that is the reason why I am here today.

Till the gates open again,
Love breeds hate...which breeds sacrifice

W.T.F

Welcome to PAIN,
So yes this is my first post that is like so early in the morning and if you wanna know why, it's because i'm in RP (YAY!!! First student). And why I'm in school this early is another thing.
So yesterday on the way back home from office, I saw this guy actually pressing the red button on the side of the MRT door to actually report about someone acting suspicious and to me he look suspicious as well but who cares.
Had Maths yesterday and it was freaking about logerithm and I was so fucking blur but manage to pull through. Had UT after that but not much confidence even thou it is an easy subject.
I dropped my freaking memory stick in class and am praying it's not sweeped awy by the cleaners or taken away by someone. The things inside are very very important to me, so this is why I'm in school this early, And I have programming today.
And yes, I know this post has alot of WTF moments but that's how my life is, cool eh?

Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Late post

Welcome to PAIN, and sorry for keepig th gates closed for the past 4 days....
Thursday was an awesome day which manage to fly pass quite fast, Friday was kinda tiring as had to go for Ace-Floor Crew training and watch a midnight movie aferthat. Let me tell you, for those who wanna watc robin hood please be very very fresh and not tired cause it's kinda of a draggy movie and I felt asleep but that shows how tired I am. Saturday was kinda long but ended the day with another AFC training. So that explains my missing posts, so please don't be hater because of no onstant updating.
Miss goat, yesterday ask you to check until now haven't get back to me...
YAY!! Tomorrow got floorball,please sense the sarcasm people

Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Hell Of A Day

Welcome to PAIN, hope you guys are enjoying your day cause I didn't...
WHY?? Because I'm so kind hearted and followed Aarif to floorball training where I was tortued and the training was far worse then athletics and ncc combined, like a total WTF!!! But not at home gonna rest and sleep because damm shack!! And miss goat, don't say I never update my blog, I do it in a 2 day once basis because I'm so busy but will update daily if can, okay?

Till the gates open again,
Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional

Crazy Monday

Welcome back to PAIN,
Well...today was rather a crazy day with school(had science)!!! I knew what the topic was and had information at the back of my head till presentation and went blank, like WTF?? Anyway after all the hectic science module had to go teach my dear sister matrices, and she is a damm fast learner so it was fun. Yeah after that was pretty much how my day went, and I got in for CLUB G and joined AFCrew... Please do follow them on FACEBOOK alright...

Till the gates open again,
Pain Is Inevitable, Suffering Is Optional

Slow day?

Welcome back,
Today basically was a very slow day and really couldn't hope but it will end soon, so hurray!!
Today things were as per normal,
Nothing really intresting happened and yeah can't wait for school tommorrow...
Ya, I know this post damm dull and lame but sorry my day was just slow and boring...
Maybe will hype up the atmosphere tommorrow....

Till the gates open again,
Pain Is inevitable, suffering is optional

The Gates Are Open

To those who have opened the gates, I would like to welcome you to PAIN. This is my first post of the posts to come. I wish that you guys would not close this gates until I close it, thank you...

Till then,
Pain Is Inevitable,Suffering Is Optional